Sappy year end meanderings..

Bean · 12-30-2004, 02:20 AM

Well, it's upon us. The end of the year, and the beginning of a new one. For some it means the end of bad times and the chance to start fresh. For others it means saying goodbye to things that were, and moving forward to things that will be. I'm not sure what it means to me. Certainly I had my bad times this year. I lost two jobs, the woman with whom I thought I would spend the rest of my life, and recently, my best friend. I also realized that the bond I share with my family will never be strong again.

With all of that in mind there was good as well. My oldest son turned 4 and my youngest started to speak. I started to repair the burned bridges between my father and I (regardless of the temporary setbacks we're now suffering). I met my biological father, and visited for the first time (second?) the place of my birth and the people there.

I realized, as I hope many of you did, that the bond shared here at the bar by most of us transcends some internet forum, and moves into the realm of friendship. Although I regret as no doubt you all do, that it took the loss of one of our friends to his demons to remind us of this.

I also realized that regardless of what my life has thrown at me, by my own hand at times, I can overcome these obstacles and move on. Well, that's what I see this new year as, a chance to move forward and look for more good things to happen. Not to forget the year behind me, but to stand on top of it proud that I survived it, and excited to see what the next will bring. I know this all sounds like emotional rubbish, but induldge me for a few moments longer.

I'm thankful for everything, good and bad, that happened in this past year, because regardless of wether it was pleasant or not, it has helped to move me forward from the person I was yesterday, and a bit closer to the person I hope to be tomorrow. I look back on other bad years I've had and think "wow, that was a bad year, but I'm greatful it happened". Why? Because it's just one more step forward. I don't think that there's any such thing as a "bad" step forward, just a real one. And this year I moved forward by leaps and bounds. I can only hope that the coming year can come close to comparing.

Happy New Year everyone.

Daxie · 12-30-2004, 09:04 AM

Beanie dear, I'm glad to see that you're starting to come out of your dark place.

As you move on to this new year, hold those thoughts with you and know that you can, and have survived the shit that life throws your way.

And for my own reasons, Thank You for those words, they have lifted me up tonight.

Cymro · 01-06-2005, 08:48 PM

Bean, you really need to start bottling things up more, it's not healthy to be letting out all these feelings all the time, then just explode at someone every now and again and you should be fine, and remember, if you don't want to beat up another human being, hit something that makes a lot of noise when you hit it, even something that breaks.

Gitch · 01-06-2005, 10:58 PM

Human beings make a lot of noise and even break if you hit them hard enough!

Cymro · 01-06-2005, 11:23 PM

Yeah, but I was thinking more along the lines of a plasterboard wall or something, or even a door or window, since breaking a human being usually causes a longer jail sentence.

Gitch · 01-07-2005, 08:51 AM

In work a lot our enzymes and stuff are delivered in large 1 cubic foot polystyrene boxes packed with dry ice. I've found that if you kick an empty one hard enough, they make a deafening boom and explode, but because they are so light only fly a few metres and don't cause any damage. Extremely satisfying when you've just fucked up and need to let off a little steam - but with no danger of wrecking the lab.

Cymro · 01-07-2005, 03:35 PM

i'll take 100!

Daxie · 01-10-2005, 06:48 AM

Quote:

Gitch stopped drinking long enough to mumble

In work a lot our enzymes and stuff are delivered in large 1 cubic foot polystyrene boxes packed with dry ice. I've found that if you kick an empty one hard enough, they make a deafening boom and explode, but because they are so light only fly a few metres and don't cause any damage. Extremely satisfying when you've just fucked up and need to let off a little steam - but with no danger of wrecking the lab.

Heh! Cool! I want some.

Bean · 01-10-2005, 05:34 PM

Yep guys, there's something to be said for random violence.

Cymro · 01-11-2005, 06:03 AM

Ouch?

12-30-2004, 02:20 AM	#1 (permalink)
Bean The Awesome One Join Date: Dec 1969 Location: Canada eh! Posts: 5,055	Sappy year end meanderings.. Well, it's upon us. The end of the year, and the beginning of a new one. For some it means the end of bad times and the chance to start fresh. For others it means saying goodbye to things that were, and moving forward to things that will be. I'm not sure what it means to me. Certainly I had my bad times this year. I lost two jobs, the woman with whom I thought I would spend the rest of my life, and recently, my best friend. I also realized that the bond I share with my family will never be strong again. With all of that in mind there was good as well. My oldest son turned 4 and my youngest started to speak. I started to repair the burned bridges between my father and I (regardless of the temporary setbacks we're now suffering). I met my biological father, and visited for the first time (second?) the place of my birth and the people there. I realized, as I hope many of you did, that the bond shared here at the bar by most of us transcends some internet forum, and moves into the realm of friendship. Although I regret as no doubt you all do, that it took the loss of one of our friends to his demons to remind us of this. I also realized that regardless of what my life has thrown at me, by my own hand at times, I can overcome these obstacles and move on. Well, that's what I see this new year as, a chance to move forward and look for more good things to happen. Not to forget the year behind me, but to stand on top of it proud that I survived it, and excited to see what the next will bring. I know this all sounds like emotional rubbish, but induldge me for a few moments longer. I'm thankful for everything, good and bad, that happened in this past year, because regardless of wether it was pleasant or not, it has helped to move me forward from the person I was yesterday, and a bit closer to the person I hope to be tomorrow. I look back on other bad years I've had and think "wow, that was a bad year, but I'm greatful it happened". Why? Because it's just one more step forward. I don't think that there's any such thing as a "bad" step forward, just a real one. And this year I moved forward by leaps and bounds. I can only hope that the coming year can come close to comparing. Happy New Year everyone. __________________ "I haven't faced death. I've cheated death. I've tricked my way out of death and patted myself on the back for my ingenuity. I know nothing." --James T. Kirk

12-30-2004, 09:04 AM	#2 (permalink)
Daxie Patrons Join Date: Dec 1969 Location: Columbus, Ohio Posts: 1,010	Beanie dear, I'm glad to see that you're starting to come out of your dark place. As you move on to this new year, hold those thoughts with you and know that you can, and have survived the shit that life throws your way. And for my own reasons, Thank You for those words, they have lifted me up tonight. __________________ >Hagar: "Before we go into battle today let me remind you what we're fighting for! We're fighting for justice! We're fighting for equality! What could be more important than that?" >>Eddie: "How about a steady paycheck, health insurance and a good retirement plan?"

01-06-2005, 08:48 PM	#3 (permalink)
Cymro Religious Fanatic Join Date: Nov 1999 Location: Shitsville, CF63 Posts: 4,921	Bean, you really need to start bottling things up more, it's not healthy to be letting out all these feelings all the time, then just explode at someone every now and again and you should be fine, and remember, if you don't want to beat up another human being, hit something that makes a lot of noise when you hit it, even something that breaks. __________________ "Let me tell you something about humans, nephew: They're a wonderful, friendly people - as long as their bellies are full and their holosuites are working. "But take away their creature comforts, deprive them of food, sleep, sonic showers, put their lives in jeopardy over an extended period of time and those friendly, intelligent, wonderful people...will become as nasty and as violent as the most blood-thirsty klingon."

01-06-2005, 10:58 PM	#4 (permalink)
Gitch Consultant Fellationist Join Date: Dec 1969 Location: God's own country merry England Posts: 435	Human beings make a lot of noise and even break if you hit them hard enough! __________________ If masturbation is self-abuse - you are obviously doing it wrong.

01-06-2005, 11:23 PM	#5 (permalink)
Cymro Religious Fanatic Join Date: Nov 1999 Location: Shitsville, CF63 Posts: 4,921	Yeah, but I was thinking more along the lines of a plasterboard wall or something, or even a door or window, since breaking a human being usually causes a longer jail sentence. __________________ "Let me tell you something about humans, nephew: They're a wonderful, friendly people - as long as their bellies are full and their holosuites are working. "But take away their creature comforts, deprive them of food, sleep, sonic showers, put their lives in jeopardy over an extended period of time and those friendly, intelligent, wonderful people...will become as nasty and as violent as the most blood-thirsty klingon."

01-07-2005, 08:51 AM	#6 (permalink)
Gitch Consultant Fellationist Join Date: Dec 1969 Location: God's own country merry England Posts: 435	In work a lot our enzymes and stuff are delivered in large 1 cubic foot polystyrene boxes packed with dry ice. I've found that if you kick an empty one hard enough, they make a deafening boom and explode, but because they are so light only fly a few metres and don't cause any damage. Extremely satisfying when you've just fucked up and need to let off a little steam - but with no danger of wrecking the lab. __________________ If masturbation is self-abuse - you are obviously doing it wrong.

01-07-2005, 03:35 PM	#7 (permalink)
Cymro Religious Fanatic Join Date: Nov 1999 Location: Shitsville, CF63 Posts: 4,921	i'll take 100! __________________ "Let me tell you something about humans, nephew: They're a wonderful, friendly people - as long as their bellies are full and their holosuites are working. "But take away their creature comforts, deprive them of food, sleep, sonic showers, put their lives in jeopardy over an extended period of time and those friendly, intelligent, wonderful people...will become as nasty and as violent as the most blood-thirsty klingon."

01-10-2005, 05:34 PM	#9 (permalink)
Bean The Awesome One Join Date: Dec 1969 Location: Canada eh! Posts: 5,055	Yep guys, there's something to be said for random violence. __________________ "I haven't faced death. I've cheated death. I've tricked my way out of death and patted myself on the back for my ingenuity. I know nothing." --James T. Kirk

01-11-2005, 06:03 AM	#10 (permalink)
Cymro Religious Fanatic Join Date: Nov 1999 Location: Shitsville, CF63 Posts: 4,921	Ouch? __________________ "Let me tell you something about humans, nephew: They're a wonderful, friendly people - as long as their bellies are full and their holosuites are working. "But take away their creature comforts, deprive them of food, sleep, sonic showers, put their lives in jeopardy over an extended period of time and those friendly, intelligent, wonderful people...will become as nasty and as violent as the most blood-thirsty klingon."

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